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Hey everyone, here's a short write-up explaining the past 1.5 months.
For those who have taken notice of my absence, I apologize for causing massive delays and unfulfilled tasks. I logged in every few weeks, so I wasn't totally gone, but I barely did anything. I understand that my abrupt inactivity starting June was during a time when projects I was involved in were supposed to be in stages of development, and I should have warned more people before hand of my leave. I'd like to thank my friends, especially KILLCIDE and PurgeandFire, for vigilantly staying on top of things, often better than what I would have done.
The following aren't excuses, but rather a way for me to vent in an amicable way. I initially went dark because of starting summer college classes; these we're at a fast pace I couldn't keep up with while also doing Hive/WC3. This continued in partially because of the classes, but it's not like I had no time at all, I just couldn't focus. I still found myself playing games, watching media, etc in the free time that I had, but I could not commit to anything at all. Worrying about this issue and my absence made me distance myself further, probably because of guilt and anxiety. In the past, I expressed suspicions of mental problems to my closest friends on Hive, sometimes saying that I will get help but I never did for whatever reason. But after negative (clan died, things left in the dust) and positive (kind and unexpected messages) reinforcement, I will do so now, after seeing that this did not only affect myself alone, but others in the community I'm passionate about.
Also, please don't take this as a welcome back celebration post. The community is bigger than me, and I'd rather pick up what I left behind rather than make a splash. Thank you all for being patient. I'm sorry if this seemed weirdly serious for an internet absence. Just smile and wave boys :]
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For those who have taken notice of my absence, I apologize for causing massive delays and unfulfilled tasks. I logged in every few weeks, so I wasn't totally gone, but I barely did anything. I understand that my abrupt inactivity starting June was during a time when projects I was involved in were supposed to be in stages of development, and I should have warned more people before hand of my leave. I'd like to thank my friends, especially KILLCIDE and PurgeandFire, for vigilantly staying on top of things, often better than what I would have done.
The following aren't excuses, but rather a way for me to vent in an amicable way. I initially went dark because of starting summer college classes; these we're at a fast pace I couldn't keep up with while also doing Hive/WC3. This continued in partially because of the classes, but it's not like I had no time at all, I just couldn't focus. I still found myself playing games, watching media, etc in the free time that I had, but I could not commit to anything at all. Worrying about this issue and my absence made me distance myself further, probably because of guilt and anxiety. In the past, I expressed suspicions of mental problems to my closest friends on Hive, sometimes saying that I will get help but I never did for whatever reason. But after negative (clan died, things left in the dust) and positive (kind and unexpected messages) reinforcement, I will do so now, after seeing that this did not only affect myself alone, but others in the community I'm passionate about.
Also, please don't take this as a welcome back celebration post. The community is bigger than me, and I'd rather pick up what I left behind rather than make a splash. Thank you all for being patient. I'm sorry if this seemed weirdly serious for an internet absence. Just smile and wave boys :]
Oh shit
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