Well its not like i just want her for her body, im pritty attracted to her personality.
As the christian thing, well not really. Sex after marrage isnt a moral issue here .They've been together for 3 years.
I guess im a still a christian, even with all of this. I mean I prayed for God to help me find a girl when i started my driving classes (thats what reunited us) and I've prayed he that he would help me establish contact with her (what are the odds she uses her IRL name as her skype proflie, and the odd that her name is so specific and rare), now I pray he helps me make her mine. I dont know if it would really happen, or if this is some sick joke. I just dont know, got to get another drink, make the pain fade away from today.