She loves me,
She loves me not,
Don't care.
She's still damned hot.
But I turned away,
Still looking back.
To her, I'm a friend,
For the courage I lack,
To open up beside her,
without taking it back.
I open my heart, as she did hers,
but pass it off, as jokes and blurs.
She never knew,
Or maybe she did,
But I held it all back
Deep in thought I hid.
I'm just a kid, sitting in a corner,
Never the guts, to go before her.
To let it all out,
Without a doubt, to make it known,
Let my heart unload.
So my heavy burdens stick,
Churning and sick,
Holding me back,
For heart I lack.
I sneak up behind her,
and whisper in her ear,
But can i really,
Bring my feelings to bear?
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I hold your hand, and whisper softly.
You hear and understand.
But do you really,
Can I freely,
Let you hear my plan?
I want to take you in my arms,
and hold you till I die.
and so I tell you what I feel, Oh wait, No, that's a lie.
I speak of friendship and the movie,
Instead of love and getting groovy,
I talk of fictional love and hate,
Not letting my heart emancipate.
I wonder why I'm cursed this way,
Sometimes I ask myself, "How the hell, what'd you say",
But every night I still lie here,
Alone, dreaming of you,
Wanting to love you,
Touch you, kiss you,
And make you my boo.
But I am not alone, even in my mind,
Thinking of someone, does it ring a bell?
It's you, my thoughts I just can't quell.
I close my eyes and let you go,
But only for a moment so,
for then with dreams of hope, I sigh
Why, oh why.
Why.
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They Shall reap what they shall sow,
Precious truth,
For her, Oh no.
For she has used me like a condom,
Branded me with scorn,
Hit me with her hatred,
And Said I watch porn.
But I'm not shamed, nor am I Suprised.
Soon, the others shall see through her guise.
And so I walk, trampled and alone,
That's probably her, calling my phone.
From the bed we could be in,
For now,
Forever,
but she disregarded my love,
So no, Never.
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So you took my heart,
But gave yours to another,
My friend, my rock,
As close as my brother.
But it matters not, Not anymore,
I see you for what you are, you dirty whore.
I wish I never fell for that loving gaze,
Or the way your body puts my mind in a haze.
I should've seen it coming, I knew I was wrong,
But who could resist that kinda' body in a thong...
But no longer am I held back by your Breasts and your hips,
Whatever we had,
It sunk like a ship.
And I don't mean Titanic, it was something small,
Looking back at it.....
I'm really appalled.
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Why not, It's hot,
Go ahead, take it off.
You know you want to,
So don't just scoff.
I see the way you watch me when I'm turned around,
Girl, these eyes,
Won't ever let you down.
I know you just see black,
But they're like me.
Darkness and sorrow, but in the light, you'll see.
They turn a bright amber,
They shine like the stars,
And they'll never forget you,
No matter where you are.
Can't believe I'm doing this,
But it's now or never,
Get out now,
Or be trapped forever.
So I stand here before you,
With my heart on the ground,
I'm lost without you,
Help me be found.
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I'd hold you forever,
Never letting you go,
So I've got every right,
To sigh and mope.
I've spit my heart up,
Conquered all my fear,
Let my feelings out,
For you to hear.
But you,
You just walk off,
As though we spoke about the weather,
Feet still gliding,
Light as a feather.
Damn, that hurt.
But was it really that bad?
Sure it sucked,
But am I really that sad?
Do I have a right,
To place any blame,
After how I've hurt others,
With the same disdain....
, It really doesn't seem Emo to me, my writing speaks of sorrow and heartbreak, but not about dwelling in it. I'm about as far as a person can get from emo, and you've obviously misinterpreted a few lines, when I make references to the body, I am actually speaking of <their> usage of the body to keep me in a relationship, as my will was strong, but my flesh was weak.
