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The Matrix has you?

If by matrix you mean narcolepsy, then yes, it has me.

You have that? Heh, that means you should be falling asleep right about... now?
Anyways, how's that helping with taking being awake for granted when most of the time you're sleeping and basically that kind of becomes reality in a way

There are several types of narcolepsy, and not two people who suffer from it are exactly the same. For some people, that means falling asleep during the day, for some it means feeling sleepy during the day, but not necessarily sleeping, and for some it is coupled with insomnia, meaning they feel tired during the day, can't fall asleep, and if they do fall asleep, they'll sleep for pretty much random periods of time, ranging from one hour to 16 hours, but don't feel tired during the night, and also can't asleep, and instead just collapse once their body can't take anymore.

A few days ago I was awake for 40+ hours, fell asleep for 6 hours, then was awake for 6 hours, then fell asleep again for 6 hours, then went about the day normally, until I felt so sleepy I couldn't take it, but also couldn't fall asleep, then I'd fall asleep 12 hours later and wake up 6 hours later. And here I am now. I have no idea when I will sleep the next time, but I know that in a few hours I will feel so sleepy it is unbearable.

How does that affect your work? Do you do freelance?

I am still a student, so as far as studies go, I just didn't go to uni to attend lectures whatsoever, I'd mostly just show up on practices and send projects when done, and go do exams when necessary. As for work, yes, it's not a real problem with freelance work, but I'll have trouble if I try to get a typical 9-17h job.

Sucks. How's life in general? I see you quite the flexible type.

Not that great, I have serious mood swings caused by depression and sleep deprivation (both of which people don't realize are real problems thanks to the tumblr generation), and I am often judged on it and people kind of just go away (which is better for them but worse than me).

I can't even imagine keeping a good relationship afloat and I don't know how to deal with that.

Other than that, I am alive so I guess that's okay.

Depends what you want in the long run. What do you expect of life? Do you actually need/desire everything a usual human does?

I'd be fine living in a small apartment where I have my musical instruments and computer (so I can work and entertain myself), with someone I love.

Aside from that, I don't give a shit. The world can burn as far as I care, as long as it does not seriously inconvenience me. I can try to reach for greatness, and high capital, and monetize my skills a lot more, but in the end, that'd really amount to nothing except excess stress and shift in priorities.