I have two great examples of what I've been talking about, one calm, and the other in a rage.
The first was when I was walking home from school during that 'dark' period of my life. My uncle left one of his cars by our garage. I looked around to see if anyone was there, it'd be awkward if someone was watching what I intended to do. I stood ready, grabbed the front end of the car, and heaved upwards as hard as I could with my legs. I was roughly 120 lbs at the time, and was able to lift the front wheels of the car off the ground.
The second example, while less impressive, is still rather notable. During some activity in gym class, one of my classmates pushed me over the edge, as they all liked to do. I charged at him, and the staff evacuated the gym shortly afterwards, leaving only my 300 lbs gym teacher to deal with me. He tackled me to the ground, and I was furious. I forced myself to my feet, with him still trying to stop me, and still kept moving.
Unfortunately, I noticed that these things have side effects. After that angry phase was over, I'd calmed down after years of anger, and suffered minor muscle death. Minor being anything amount that can potentially heal, or atleast leaves you with the ability to continue using the affected limb. During that phase, however, I almost became addicted to that rage I felt (incidentally, my absolute love for the sensation I felt in that state was the inspiration for the sadism of the Beast from Vivians lore). While enraged, my vision was affected. Colors became brighter, I gained tunnel vision, had an extremely dull sense of touch, and no sensation of pain or fatigue. As far as my behavior went, I reacted on instinct, and any spoken words were done in a low, deep growl. I would calm myself afterwards, unable to move, and sore all over.
I've taken note recently, that it seems like I'm nearly completely healed. For quite a while after I calmed down, I had a limp, severely weakened limbs, extreme organ pains and frayed nerves. Nearly every aftereffect is gone, so I've noticed a massive spike in my strength; though that's only because it's back.
I can't wait to see it. Anyway, if you've read the walls of text in that hidden tag, you might start to see why I was initially conflicted over the whole 'revealing myself' thing.
The first was when I was walking home from school during that 'dark' period of my life. My uncle left one of his cars by our garage. I looked around to see if anyone was there, it'd be awkward if someone was watching what I intended to do. I stood ready, grabbed the front end of the car, and heaved upwards as hard as I could with my legs. I was roughly 120 lbs at the time, and was able to lift the front wheels of the car off the ground.
The second example, while less impressive, is still rather notable. During some activity in gym class, one of my classmates pushed me over the edge, as they all liked to do. I charged at him, and the staff evacuated the gym shortly afterwards, leaving only my 300 lbs gym teacher to deal with me. He tackled me to the ground, and I was furious. I forced myself to my feet, with him still trying to stop me, and still kept moving.
Unfortunately, I noticed that these things have side effects. After that angry phase was over, I'd calmed down after years of anger, and suffered minor muscle death. Minor being anything amount that can potentially heal, or atleast leaves you with the ability to continue using the affected limb. During that phase, however, I almost became addicted to that rage I felt (incidentally, my absolute love for the sensation I felt in that state was the inspiration for the sadism of the Beast from Vivians lore). While enraged, my vision was affected. Colors became brighter, I gained tunnel vision, had an extremely dull sense of touch, and no sensation of pain or fatigue. As far as my behavior went, I reacted on instinct, and any spoken words were done in a low, deep growl. I would calm myself afterwards, unable to move, and sore all over.
I've taken note recently, that it seems like I'm nearly completely healed. For quite a while after I calmed down, I had a limp, severely weakened limbs, extreme organ pains and frayed nerves. Nearly every aftereffect is gone, so I've noticed a massive spike in my strength; though that's only because it's back.
I can't wait to see it. Anyway, if you've read the walls of text in that hidden tag, you might start to see why I was initially conflicted over the whole 'revealing myself' thing.
